Showing posts with label abroad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label abroad. Show all posts

Sunday, 2 August 2015

Lately

Lately I marked the end of my postgrad diploma in London - for those of us who don't speak that strange vocabulary, that means 2/3 of the way towards the MA at LCDS.



Most recently, last week I began studio research for my next project.  I also heard the good news that an artist I respect very much, Sara Wookey, has agreed to be my MA supervisor.

It's been a really full year. Since my last update at the end of 2014, I have written papers on Contact Improvisation - a cooperative form of dancing contrasted with its roots in the martial art of Aikido, and separately speculating on Contact settings as a laboratory for new forms of social organisation. I participated in the creation of a new work by Paolo Mangiola, who questioned contemporary dance as a form for the future. I reflected on my choreographic process through a jelly-making lecture demonstration. I turned my last few years' hobby of sliding down staircases into a dance film, with the support of a wonderful group of collaborators mostly from the London Contact Improv community.

And throughout the month of June I worked with a wonderful group of dancers to produce "The Sunshine Empire", an interactive performance selling the secrets of happiness.


Now it's my summer of Contact Improv in Europe, and reflection and rest in between.

In a way it seems that this time in London is allowing me to finally come into my own - spending time with other choreographers and like-minded collaborators has helped me find confidence in my practice: my exploration and research, my aesthetic, and my working style. (For now!)

I'll be home in Singapore soon, looking forward to attending a workshop with Danny K at the Esplanade. And!  Fingers crossed, I hope I will get to vote.

Monday, 19 January 2015

Conversations on choreography and composition

We had a really rich and enjoyable experience with the LCDS-Guildhall collaborations.  I recorded this post-collab discussion for our colleagues who couldn't join us that day.  They've given permission for me to reproduce it here!
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LCDS-Guildhall Music Collaborations 2014 Post-Collaboration Discussion, 8 December 2014 at The Place

Lauren: What were some things that you learned or found particularly challenging or interesting about this project? How did you cope with the short time period?

Sze: I had very different but productive experiences working with James and Sylvia. With Sylvia we agreed on a great deal of things but the difficulty was that we didn’t have our musician until very late in the process.  I was choreographing without knowing what the music would sound like and she was writing without knowing what it would sound like either.  But she was really present.  Every rehearsal she was there with us, and I realized that she has a great visual sense as well.

With James it was interesting because we disagreed so much!  We realized that we have very different approaches and aesthetics.  It took us about three meetings to settle what concept we wanted to work on. But we had many moments where we realized that it wasn’t working and we had to return to the concepts.  The most interesting discussion we had was when we decided we had to return to understanding each others’ aesthetic and what we wanted to get out of the piece.  In the end we got something very different from what each of us would otherwise make, and it was very interesting.

James: I used the analogy of raisins and mustard from Harrison Birtwistle: “Making a piece is like creating a new recipe.  You first go and pick ingredients.  Maybe it’s mustard and raisins. What matters is the way you put them together, without making the dish too wishy-washy.”

The nature of our working process was up and down, one week might be great and the next one dodgy. We hit some brick walls rather than full steam ahead. Our job was to make it work, not to settle for compromises.  We were really interested in trying each other’s “shoes” on, that is trying out each other’s working process. We found ways to gel through talking, improvisation and listening to each other to find a connection.

What didn't work was when we veered away from collaboration – when we built structures and I had a written score. We ended up not listening to each other when we had it written down.

Working with a collaborator with a different aesthetic forced me to return the concept much more often, which is something I don’t always do when writing music.  This is something useful I will definitely take away with me.

Chris: I wrote something different from what I usually write. What helped me and Connor was that we were very clear on the intentions of the material and we drew the trajectory of the piece before making it. That helped me to write something that was different and stick to it. 
I also learned that if something is already not working in the music, putting it together with the dance makes the issue even more obvious.

Lauren: Looking back to the workshop week that started these collaborations, this process was in some ways  about knowing what tools and decisions to work with - about experiencing a wide range of tools or ways of working and then deciding which ones to select.

Yanaelle: It was great to be working on the project like this, to see how Guildhall people work.
Chris: One thing that could have been better was if the musicians could have been more present earlier in the rehearsal process, to really merge the performance with the dancers and create a stronger connection between them. The dialogue between music and dance was an ongoing process, which emerged from the live performance.

Yanaelle: For us, working with recordings could be tricky. We worked for some time with a recording of the first section from Thomas.  But when the actual musicans came to play for rehearsal it was very different and it really threw the dancers off because it wasn’t played the exact same way.

Lauren: How was it for the composers working with composition tutors who didn’t see the dance component of the project? When teachers gave you contrasting comments what did you do and how did you understand what they meant? For dancers, would it have been useful to have another tutor for choreography?

Chris: I discussed with my tutor as well as with Paul but I didn’t feel like one path was “the” right path to follow. My tutor helped me quite a bit with the chords at the end.  He also kept reminding me of the concept of the piece, to the extent that I realized I couldn’t do anything else.

James: Because so little of this piece was written, I spent quite a lot of time with my tutor talking about the concept. We discussed the idea that when you hear your own work at a later stage, you start to see new problems in it that you didn't see when you first made it, this being what Birtwistle calls a 'wound' in a piece. At a later stage still, a wound might heal, that is you no longer find that aspect of the piece problematic, but a new wound might open up somewhere else. I think it's quite a common process to go through with your own work, even while still composing, and I think it definitely happened to us!

Sylvia: My tutor is Paul so he was familiar with what we were doing. I found this helpful as he could offer his thoughts on the integration between music and dance during the compositional process. When I went to have a lesson with another tutor, to whom I showed a video but didn’t really explain the concept in great depth, he commented more on the musical structure, and isolated the musical aspect to make sure it was working on its own. 

Yanaelle: Because I was busy with the Crystal Pite project, Thomas went ahead to write the first section of the music first.  That set the tone for how I worked after that.  We worked by sections. The first one was quite set and I created the movement along with that.  For other sections we created the music and the movement separately based on the same idea.  However there was one section where it really didn’t work and we had to look at it again.

Lauren: For the first time in this collaboration project, we had many more musicians available for more rehearsals than before.  How did that influence how you worked?

Chris: We didn’t have so many rehearsals with the musicians. I had decided that I would finalize the piece after the second week.  Of course in the third week we had the rehearsal with the dancers and musicians and I realized that it didn’t work at all and had to go back to rewrite it.

Sze: Our situation with Sylvia was rather that we didn’t have the musician or even the instrument confirmed till quite late.  But we did benefit from extra time for bubbling of ideas that the other groups did not have.

Sylvia: I had to work with what was available. I originally wanted to write for double bass and viol but double bass was not available.  So I ended up writing for just viol and in the end I think it worked out better that way.

Sze: It would have been a totally different piece.

Chris: It would have changed the texture of the piece a lot.

Sylvia: Even with two instruments I would have used them quite soloistically.

Lauren: (For Jordan) What was your experience of the process?

Jordan: As an undergraduate student I thought about how I can pull from the experiences that I had from working with different choreographers, so that I could make decisions and direct my dancers.
There is never a perfect performance.  The question for me was whether as a creator, I could let go? Actually a piece or a recording is a document of who you were at a certain point. 

Sze: You also can’t control audience’s reactions (e.g. laughter) to your work.

Sze: For dancers it’s usual to work with music but for composers it’s less common to work with movement.  How was the experience for you?

James: I realized that it takes very little time for things to shift and evolve in music, wheras in dance two minutes is a very short time for a shift to happen. I thought about our perception of time in seeing and hearing. Is it episodic or continuous?

Lauren: How much did your pieces reflect the “haiku” of the workshop week?

Sze: The idea of other spaces and displaced noises remained with us from the time I shut Sylvia in the cupboard!

Sylvia: I continued to think about how I could displace sounds, musically and spatially.

Chris: We made a piece where I had just one chord where the elements drop out one by one and Connor simply went from standing to bending down, really slowly.  I think it influenced our concept quite strongly.

Yanaelle: For the haiku, I stood behind Thomas on one leg, balancing, and he played a circular motion around the edge of his singing bowl. The quality of both the movement and sound was used in our final piece.

Music Collaborations
Performances created in collaboration by students from London Contemporary Dance School and Postgraduate students from Guildhall School of Music and Drama
5-6 December 2014, Robin Howard Dance Theatre

1.     Loop
Concept/Performance by James Albany Hoyle, Chan Sze-Wei

2.     Muliebris
Choreographer: Katy Ayling
Composer: Hans Hoeglund
Dancers: Laura Ginatempo, Laura Lorenzi, Katrina Madrilejo
Musicians: Trumpet/Flugelhorn; Chloe Abbott, Viola: Anna Luiza, Percussion: Dori Raphael, Piano: Yung-Yueh Cheng

3.     Aki
Choreographer: Jordan Ajadi
Composer: Donghoon Shin
Dancers: Laura Ginatempo, Luke Crook, Josie Sinnadurai, Sophie Morgan
Musicians: Cello; Andrew Power, Clarinet; Han Kim, Piano; Sebastian Espinosa, Conductor; James Albany Hoyle

4.     Without
Choreographer: Connor Williams
Composer: Chris McCormack
Dancers: Laura Lorenzi, Katrina Madrilejo, Benjamin Eagles, Mari Ishida
Musicians: Violin; Lyazzat Abisheva, Violin; Yi-Ning Liao, Violin; Monika Chmielewska, Piano; Ng Yu Ching Shelley, Percussion; Vonald Chow, Electronics; Chris McCormack

5.     Dessus de Souffle
Choreographer: Yanaelle Thiran
Composer: Thomas Fournil
Dancers: Luke Crook, Benjamin Eagles, Joanna Kalm, Mari Ishida, Sophie Morgan, Josie Sinnadurai
Musicians: Flute; Toni Berg, Jack Michael Welch, Clarinet; Myles Wakelin-Harkett, Percussion; Peter Ashwell, Singing Bowl; Mari Ishida

6.     Feet of Bread
Choreographer: Chan Sze-Wei
Composer: Sylvia Lim
Dancer: Virginia Scudeletti
Bass Viol: Liam Byrne

Collaborations Tutors: Lauren Potter, Paul Newland



Friday, 4 April 2014

Thoughts on first contact

We had a beautiful jam in the Hanoi botanical garden last Sunday. After the jam I received these thoughts from Hanh, who experienced CI for the first time that day:


"As promised, I write down some thoughts and feeling of the dance session last Sunday.

For me, it is a kind of performance art. It is not just a dance performance.

This was first time I've danced in public space and I think I discovered a boundary in myself.

I strongly believe in the existence of body talk because I made friends through dances with Jill, Sze and a guy whose name I can not spell. It took less time than usual with verbal languages."

Sunday, 25 August 2013

Performance Updates Aug-Dec 2013

Dear friends,

I’m back from the summer tour of Focus on the Atlantic Coast of France, and working between Singapore and KL on my new performance/installation/creation at the Substation, among other projects.  The next few months for me will include some performances and teaching in Singapore (I’m picking up my lecturer’s pass at Lasalle!), and performances and labs in Sweden, Germany, Malaysia and Taiwan. As always, I would love to catch up with you and share my work here or overseas.  Do drop me a line if you’d like to connect while I’m in your part of the world!

Also for the first time in these updates, I’ve attached a publication from the volunteer team that I run at Oogachaga, a counseling and personal development organization for the lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and questioning/queer (LGBTQ) community. It’s not an artistic pursuit at all – it’s about how we can support ourselves and others through emotional crises. We had an amazing team that worked very hard on this and its associated workshop on 18 Aug. I’m very proud of it and hope to make it available to as many people as possible, LGBTQ or straight, who might find it useful.

I don’t know if I’ll ever have another year like this one. I’m not sure if I should – but here goes!

love,

Sze



Contradiction
Sat 31 August 7.30pm
72-13 Mohamed Sultan Rd
Free admission

I’m part of the annual literary reading in Singapore’s pride festival Indignation this year.  The curators have picked an interesting selection of my work from six years ago to the present!  I’ll be reading and probably dancing them.  Curated by Ng Yi-Sheng and Jasmine Seah, you can expect an evening of excellent poetry, prose, spoken word and theatre script readings, often material that hasn’t had the chance to be published. All are welcome (not just LGBTQ folks!) but do come early to get a seat, because it’s usually packed to capacity. Details at https://www.facebook.com/events/669998949682641/?fref=ts

Do Gorillas Peel Bananas? with David Lim
Fri-Sat 13-14 September 8pm
The Substation
Tickets $10.  Email reservations boxoffice@substation.org

This is my labour of love for the year.  When I was selected for the Performance Open Call programme this year, I launched myself into a foolhardy adventure into forms and material that I have always wanted to do but never had the opportunity to try before. It’s finally come down to a crazy and I hope funny performance/installation/experiment on non-state censorship and control.  The piece developed out of conversations with David on the sides of the KL Contact Improv festival (where we are co-organisers) in the last two years. It’s the first time that I’m driving the concept and direction for a project of this scope, and I’m lucky to have the support of my collaborators (also Andy Lim and Brian Gothong Tan) and the mentorship of Natalie Hennedige of Cake Theatre and Noor Effendy Ibrahim of the Substation. It has been and continues to be a terrifying, thrilling gamble for me. Audience size is restricted to 40 pax per night so do book early if you’re planning to come!  You can view the synopsis and a fruit ninja promo video here. http://www.substation.org/event/do-gorillas-peel-bananas/

The Third Space – Explorations in Contemporary Asian Dance presented by Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts
Fri 11 Oct 2013 7.30pm/Sat 12 Oct 2013 6pm
The Esplanade Recital Studio
Tickets $15/$10 (concession) at SISTIC

This year NAFA decided to let its alumni choreographers step up for the Third Space platform at the Esplanade da:ns festival. Six proposals were selected, including my new short work “II”. It’s an improvised duet for three dancers, scored from the instructions on the back of a chopsticks wrapper! I am dancing in this piece with Laura Tham and Farliana Ghan.  The rest of the evening’s programme is a varied mix of lyrical, spiritual and experimental visions of five fellow graduates – Lin Juliana, Lee Ren Xin, Max Chen, Elizabeth Lee, Goh Shou Yi. Details at  http://www.dansfestival.com/2013/next-gen/the-third-space/

All Is Divine
October/December 2013
Dansens Hus, Stockholm/Kampnagel, Hamburg

At last year’s Singapore Arts Festival I got to take part in a workshop with Swedish director Charlotte Engelkes, who was developing a third instalment to her Wagner-comedy-dance-theatre trilogy “A Very Wagnerian Night”.  This year the workshop segment has developed into a fantastic full length show, where we spy into the private lives of the German/Nordic mythical pantheon as the world is coming to an end. At which point the gods turn out to be quite human, and quite Asian too. Together with a team of actors, opera singers, sound artists and designers from Sweden, Germany, and from Singapore singer Celine Rosa Tan and visual artist Brian Gothong Tan. Details at charlotteengelkes.com

Asia Pacific Impro!
4-10 November 2013
DPAC, Kuala Lumpur (PJ)

I’ve been invited to the first platform in Southeast Asia for improvised performance, along with dancers and musicians from Japan, Taiwan, Malaysia and Singapore.  We will be involved in a week of research labs, but also opening the doors to teach dance workshops and share performances. Details at asiapacificimpro.org

Be with Me - Self Care in Emotional Crisis a publication by Oogachaga/OC Women


Wednesday, 17 April 2013

What is a triangle II

My last five days now have been spent in Coventry, immersed in Tuning Scores improvisation work with Karen Nelson.  (a workshop organised by decoda in Coventry)

One of the first few exercises had the initial 12 of us working around a large studio space with our eyes closed - a cornerstone of the sensory heightening in this work - when Karen said "now make a triangle".  What was that?  How would we find that without sight, with so many people, and the confusing immediacy of touch, sound and intuition?  After the exercise ended, Karen said, "Give me a title for what you just did." One dancer volunteered, "what is a triangle?".

The questions continued.  How do you know you are dancing? Can you walk forward, with backwards eyes? How do we know we exist?  We learned to make suggestions to the group as we danced, and worked on listening to the calls and to our senses and our desires and expectations.  Pause. Reverse. Replace. End. Begin.  A multitude of instantaneous decisions and interactions.  So much information around us, in every instant. How do we survive this world?

These five days in, I know my improvising will never be the same again.

There is such a richness in this practice of sensitization and questioning. As individuals we take in snapshots of inspiration from time to time, and live in a world constantly filled with many other people. But in how many of those moments are we actually existing together, in connection? I realized today that this work is one of those pathways that allows us to cultivate the present.  When reaching with intuition and an activation of as many of the senses as we can muster.  Calling out our desires and curiosities to ground our attention and to allow us to enter into each others' perception and experience.  Allowing us to be present in a common reality with ourselves and connected with others - moments otherwise so fleeting and often unacknowledged.

Right now there is nothing better than having no idea what is going to happen next.  "A funeral," said Karen, "for our desires."  It is a work that takes practice - for people like Lisa and Karen, a lifetime.  It is fun and at times playful but it is also exhausting work and a commitment to be alive, to be awake and to be together with other people.  At the workshop, Charlie Morrissey recommended this article by Lisa Nelson on how we look at dance - and how we dance as a consequence.  Before your eyes: Seeds of a dance practice.

What is an end?  I am growing to love how the idea of an "end" is a marker that holds time.  It draws our attention to see a possibility of finite-ness, or the space for new beginnings.  In our lives, we identify things as "end" because that's a test of how much we want to be able to stop time.  Or how much we wish we could force it to continue as it was before. Continue it does, but only in a way that we have no control over.  We can only respond.




For the first time, on the last night that I am here, I am noticing the sound of the train going by. Tomorrow I will be in a new place.

(some little edits from what I posted a day ago.  blogger's license!)

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

what is a triangle I

This is one of those moments!

I am never going to be the same again.  My dancing and my living has taken me into another place, another phase. I am older, I am changed, I am new.



I could feel the change coming in the last month  in France.  Focus was back on tour. 9 shows from the South-west, to the Ardeche, Lyon and Paris.  Format-wise, little has changed.  On the road rehearsing, eating, sleeping as a trio.  In its shape the show isn't so different from what you might have seen in Avignon or Singapore last year.  But in its execution we are all profoundly different.  A year later, each of the silences has found its sense, the lines their parallel and our words their rhythm. 

The biggest difference for me was that Ole did work some changes into my opening solo, which is now a duet between me dancing and him whipping the wind out of the Kaossilator gadget.  It's been a year that I have been searching for that improv solo, tormenting even at times when we were not performing. I was sure that despite all the work I devoted to it, it was my most forgettable moment on stage and I dreaded it. Then finally, Ole gave me some new ideas the day before we opened in Paris. I wasn't sure when we went out and sat on stage in the fog, but once I started moving that night, I knew that it had been found.  The sense of finally having found what I want to say and digging into the space between me and the audience to hold it.  Each night, it grew.

Monday, 24 December 2012

Happy updates 2013!

Happy holidays everyone!

Here's wrapping up one year, crazy in a good way - and looking forward to more of the same!

la Rampe, Echirolles - stealing a moment from the tech run of Focus at the Reconnaissances competition.
To bridge the old and the new year, I'll be performing my new solo, in Solo! s@ expands on an exploration that I begun with that big old chain of bells in I watched the flowers - the same one featured in Zaobao. It will be shown at the Srawung Seni Candi festival on 31 December and 1 January.

Focus in Vientiane, FMK 2012.  Photo by Morning Song Production.
Focus with KHAM Cie continues to tour in France - we will be near Toulouse, and in Lyon and Paris in March-April, and on summer tour (venues tbc) in July.

All is Divine at the Singapore Arts Festival 2012.  Photo by Anna Ardelius.  I'm the strange spiky thing on the left.
All is Divine by Charlotte Engelkes began with a workshop at the Singapore Arts Festival this year and is going to be expanded as part of her Very Ring trilogy! Rehearsals begin in April and we will premiere at the Dansens Hus in Stockholm in September.

I'm also looking forward to my new collaboration Do gorillas peel bananas? with David Lim (Singapore and KL production dates and venues tbc). and the next editions of the Kuala Lumpur Contact Improvisation Festival and the Fang Mae Khong Festival.

I hope that you're all well. Best wishes!

Sze

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Sze's Dance Updates Sep-Dec 2012

Dear friends,

Thanks to everyone who came to support the shows and sent well wishes in March-July!

I'm performing my first theatre piece (since Junior College) in two weeks at the Substation, then I'm back on the road from October onwards.

Pretty Things
21-22 Sep 2012 (Fri-Sat)
The Substation Theatre, tickets $15
Another crazy romp! About conformity, questions, love, divinity. Written and directed by Pat Toh. With Bright Ong, Ian Tan, Jean Toh and Yazid Jalil.  Lighting by Andy Lim and sound by Zulkiflie Mahmod.  Not recommended for the faint-hearted!
http://www.substation.org/pretty-things/

Kuala Lumpur Contact Improv Festival
1-7 Oct 2012
Rimbun Dahan, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
I'm a happy part of the organising team for the only international contact improv festival in Asia this year. It's a residential workshop featuring some greatly respected contact improv practitioners from Singapore, Taiwan and Australia - and also an amazing retreat for active mind-body connectedness at all levels of experience, for dancers as well as non-dancers.  We'll also have a performance and sharing open to public on the final day of the festival on 7 Oct at the Rimbun Dahan artists' sanctuary on the outskirts of the city.
http://www.contactimprovkl.com/festival/

Fang Mae Khong International Dance Festival, Laos23-28 Oct 2012
Vietiane and Luang Prabang, Laos
Because I couldn't just stop at one - I'm returning to the Fang Mae Khong festival in Laos after the amazing experience I had last year, this time as part of the organising committee.  I'll also be performing "Focus" the new trio by Ole Khamchanla/KHAM Cie in Vientiane.
http://www.fmkfestival.org/

Focus by KHAM Cie

Nov-Dec 2012, France
Following our Singapore premiere, Focus is continuing for a second French tour at the Reconnaissances competition in Annemasse in November, and residencies in Grenoble and Marseille to develop the piece into a full length work for performance in Paris and other parts of France in 2013. I don't have details on hand at the moment for public performances or workshops, but do let me know if you're interested in more info on the French leg (or in catching up while I'm in France) and I will keep you informed!
http://www.kham.fr/index.php/en/trio-spectacle-2

hugs,

Sze

Monday, 19 March 2012

One tour ends, another begins

Got back from France two days ago.  I think I haven't really realised that the first leg of the creation of Focus is over.  I am still waking up at 4 am with my body trying to remain on french time, still thinking about the choreography. About jumping into Ole's car and heading for the studios at the Pole Culturel Camille Claudel.  Thinking what I'd like to fix for dinner for Ole and Jereh, our SM Lise and our landlady Mireille.


It all happened so fast.
 
2 March, Sorgues/Avignon, les Hivernales. Premiere in a thick cloud of pea fog, in the familiar black box of our residency with the audience on a steep rake and scalding showers backstage. A final curtain call with Cie Stylistik (the other half of the double bill) among their field of Laotian straw hats.


3 March. Pile into car at 730am to hit the road for Toulouse.  Focus was an entirely different show in the huge square of the Place du Capitole. We danced in the chilly wind, practically in the laps of the bemused crowd, the marketplace, and the cars horning a wedding on its way to the town hall. We can hear every mutter of the audience, their amusement and perplexion.  I love performing in the open.  Hit the road again.




4 March. We only see a corner of Lourdes, the town of the Virgin Mary.  It's the corner between the snow-capped mountains, our motel and the Salle des Fetes. The theatre is a mini House of World Cultures, all concrete-oyster and dark glass.  There is a small constellation of citrus-tinted globes suspended above the stage, and four hundred people sitting on chairs in the dark.  We are the last item in the festival, just before the hip hop battle. Then again the road, the clouds for hours.  We return to Avignon past midnight. Jianhao and Lise gulp down a coffee and take the road for Lyon.




Five weeks will pass very quickly, said Ole.

Wednesday, 8 February 2012

Coming in out of the cold



Travelling to another country, rehearsing in unfamiliar spaces, participating in a new creation, ploughing through the cold cold wind.  In my innocence I never realised that performing life and cultural outreach is a much huger world outside the work I've known in Singapore.

This is pretty much my first full time production - daily rehearsals in an isolated space, living day in day out with the same collaborators, touring in our choreographer's beat-up little car.  Minus so many of the daily distractions - other technique classes, part time jobs to pay the bills, additional projects, social life - that fill the air when I am working at home. Instead I am really dancing day to night - with preparations focused on a single project instead of the scattered repertoire as I knew it in school.

This degree of concentration is a luxury as well as a challenge.  We have three weeks to go to the premiere of Focus by Kham Company at les Hivernales dance festival in Avignon.  Some days I can hardly believe my luck to be here - and on other days I wonder if he chose the right dancer and if I'm actually up to this. If I can grow enough in these six weeks so that I'm not wasting all these fantastic facilities and arrangements where everything is taken care of.

Friday, 4 November 2011

The best premiere

First tech run, Thakhek. Photo by Caroline Cochet.

I declare now that I fell in love with Laos last month. There will be some sentimental raving.

I am indebted to four squirming tots in a disused motel restaurant in Thakek. Who watched my first dress run of the Always Sea in Fang Mae Khong (FMK). They sat transfixed through all 20 minutes of languid soundscape and strange sitting and falling and object collection. Also the horde of tweens at the actual first show who were so weirded out that they actually ran away from me as I exited through the audience.

What a pleasure to have fresh eyes. An audience that you can amaze and touch.

These were people who have never seen any dance in their lives save for a bit of breakdancing. Part of me wishes I could see as they do, and see for the first time the ambitious mixed bag put together by Ole Khamchanla and his FMK team. The Vientiane-based Laobangfai b-boy crew (virtual teen celebs here) were the draw and local street dance crews opened the show. I wouldn't have bet that this audience would sit through it all - Lao dancers reinventing tradition and hip hop through contemporary dance, meditative contemporary Indian dance, Cambodian classical-meets club groove, clowning on Jacques Brel, Myanmar classicial dance battles b-boy, contemp hip-hop, stripped down experimental contemp, and my own weird installation performance thing. (See here for more info about the festival). And watch they did, in three towns. 

I can still feel the press of the last audience we played to, in the cool night below the bemused gaze of President Souphanouvong and the hills of Luang Prabang.  Maybe three hundred people, squeezed into standing room and peeking from benches or the tops of cars just to be able to see... They were completely along with us for the ride.  We were all amazed together.

Immigration

I have had the fortune to travel and perform a fair bit in the past year. The immigration forms gave me the realisation that I had a great luxury of self-definition.

Seems hard to believe that just five months ago I was still immersed in three years of formal dance training. That orgy of intensely self-directed sweat, angst, humblement, reshaping oneself through guidance. At the end of which I stopped writing “Student” and put down “Dancer” every time I crossed a border.

Then the last five months – The Hungry Stones. The Screw of Thought at Theatreworks. The Singapore School Project with ITI. Contact Improvisation festival KL. My capoeira batisado.The Always Sea. Randai. Play! at the ArtScience Museum. Fang Mae Khong in Laos. 2High in Brisbane.

It is odd to say this. These days, I don't think I am dancing. I am moving, a great deal, but not in the same sense that I understood this in my past few years at NAFA. I have my own work, and it is often movement but it is not necessarily dance as in the technical sense. In the rehearsed and prepared sense. In the rules of choreography sense.

I am seeking. I am drowning. I am reading and mis-reading other human beings and human bodies. Sniffing around for ambient energy and human history. I am asking questions and writing emo drivel like this and proposing that something could happen. And also I am spending a lot of time writing proposals and grant applications.

In the last month I started to write “artist” instead of “dancer”. Then I end up explaining that I don't actually paint or sculpt. It could just as well be “researcher” or “interpreter”. I still hesitate over the boxes Holiday and Business for “purpose of trip”. I am tempted to draw in another box for Art, or Life.